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So... For the first time in maybe two years I updated my FaceBook page, and was then hit with the need to create an OTP list. Since I couldn't find a good place to put in facebook, not to mention I don't exactly want *everyone* to know I'm into yaoi, I decided to put it here. ^_^

Current OTPs (the ones I'm avidly reading fanfiction about):

Kuroshitsuji: Sebastian/Ciel
KHR!: anyone(everyone)/Tsuna, especially 8027, R27, and 692718
Code Geass: Schneizel/Lulu, Rolo/Lulu
Death Note: L/Raito
Gundam 00: N!Lockon/Setsuna, Alle/Setsuna, Saji/Setsuna.... and Haro Help

Current (but less rabid) OTPs:

KHR!: 5927, D27
Code Geass: Suzu/Lulu, Lulu/Suzu, Lloyd/Suzu
Tsubasa RC: Kurogane/Syaoran
One Piece: Zoro/Luffy
Death Note: Raito/L
Hetalia: Germany/Italy, America/England, America/Japan, England/Japan
Naruto: Sai/Naruto
Gintama: GinHiji, HijiGin, GinShin, HijiShin
Bleach: everyone/Ichigo, HichiIchi, GrimmIchi, Aizen/Ichi, Ichi/Hitsu
D. Gray-Man: Lavi/Allen, Tyki/Allen, Cross/Allen, Tyki/Lavi

Old OTPs (RIP):

xxxHolic: Doumeki/Watanuki
CCS: Touya/Syaoran
Naruto: SasuNaru, NaruSasu, GaaNaru, NaruGaa, IruNaru, KakaNaru, KyuubiNaru
Harry Potter: Draco/Harry, Harry/Draco
PoT: anyone/Ryo, but especially MomoRyo, Silver Pair, various pairings...
Bleach: Ichi/Ishi
D. Gray-Man: Kanda/Allen

So... I got Manga Debut a few days ago, and thought I'd create a manga and post it on a website.... But even I have to admit my drawing sucksis really bad. But! But! The more I draw, the better it's becoming, at least in my opinion. You can find the site over here: sites.google.com/site/shinjumanga/


Unfortunately, the site won't let me load the first part of my cover page! >_< It's probably too big for it... So, I'm trying to upload it here, see it that works. :D And... apparently, no, livejournal doesn't like me either. T_T

Your Result is: Hinata
You are like Hinata, the shy girl who loves blue. She always stutters and she�s so in love with Naruto

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;_; I just want it to be over with... or at least to be out of school and do some guilt free all day TV watching/Wii playing....  
Not to mention my Dad's being a p*ick.  And my Mom is better, but can also be NOT helpful. 

And I've forgotten what chocolate tastes like... I mean REAL chocolate! Chocolate chips (which has less fat in them than other kinds of chocolate) is starting to TASTE exactly like real chocolate... And that's a pretty bad sign...................... I'm also going into major katsu/peking ravioli withdrawls......... ;________________________________________________________________________________________; ;;;;;;_____;;;;;;;; And my Oofuri Meme's turing into Fail Meme......................... 
(goes off in a corner and cries, Tamaki style). 


Edit:
And my godmother has betrayed me for the first time. Technically, I have three godparents (two godmoms, one goddad), but I've never considered the other two as really important to me. The third one, my Dad's secretary, has always been there been for me, and been someone I could tell almost anything to. Even when my Dad has been the mightest of p*icks, she's always been neutral. But today, for the first time, she betrayed me and took Dad's side. And now I don't know if I can trust her anymore... After Dad and especially his girlfriend, have been recently bullying me (about my depression, and my "incompetence" in dealing with doctors, and choosing to go to Mom's after school ends and after my surgery) I had hoped that I could have her to rely on to not chide me. But... even after I told her that I am planning to go to mom's after school, so I couldn't be with Dad on his b-day (he was orginally supposed to be with his girlfriend in Europe at that time, and I only learned last Wednesday that his plans had changed), we discussed having a b-day lunch with my Dad this week (my college is real close to Dad's place), and it was supposed to be tomorrow. Today I got this message:

I can't contact you about lunch tomorrow until you talk to your father.

He wants to know what you decided to do about the invitation for

Saturday, and how your make-up work is going.

Please call him and let me know when you do so that perhaps we can still

make plans for lunch tomorrow with him.

Wow... Just wow... I know that this probably doesn't look like a betrayal to some, but to me... wow... this is the first time in my life my godmother has EVER done anything to make me angry. Normally, she's a SAINT. Literally, a SAINT. My dad, he plays these games, you know? Where he changes his plans at the last minute and then throws fits when everyone else doesn't change their plans too. My dad is super passive-aggresive and plays all sorts of weird mind games. But he's never gotten her on his side. It really makes me want to cry... One of the few adults that I thought I could fully trust has joined the dark side...

Edit 2:
We've made up!! Banzai!!! Confetti!!! Apparently, it seems like it was all Dad's fault!! But at least we were able to work it out between my godmother and me... ^_^

Since mid-November, everyday, everytime I see the date I can't stop counting down the days until December 27th... -_-;;; Normally, I'd be counting down the days until Christmas, but since I already got my presents from my both my mom and and ex-step mom, and since I can't eat any candy (except fat-free stuff like swedish fishies) until after my surgery, I can't stop counting down the days until I'll be gall bladder-less. I know that it's day surgery, and that it really isn't that big of a deal, that there's no way I'll die, and that I myself was the one who wanted it as soon as possible, but... having an organ removed from your body really is a scaaaaaary prospect. Each time I'm reminded of it, I can't stop thinking, "what if? what if?" Normally, I try my best to take things as they come, and not to worry to much about it, but I keep on thinking about things like, "what if they make a mistake and I die? what if I'm in a ton of pain afterward? How long will it be until I can actually move around? what if I'm in pain for weeks? what if the wound gets infected and it becomes serious?" things like that... and it just keeps on getting worse the closer to the date it is. 

Actually, right after the date was decided, I started trying to get my whole family together for Christmas, since I have no memory of everyone being together on that day (the only times everyone has been together had been for things like graduation. -_-;;;). My family really doesn't get along. My Mom and Dad can't stand each other's guts, and Sarah, my ex-step mom, really doesn't want to be around my Dad (although he has these delusions that Sarah wronged him and it's about time she reached out and apologized. He has a girlfriend, but he's still intent on going over to his ex-wife's house. And wow, it was actually Dad who really wronged Sarah, even I know that! He's very delusional about certain things, and it's kinda creepy. I feel that recently he's even become sort of my stalker, and I am NOT amused. He also lets his girlfriend bully me, and doesn't even stop her from making me cry...). Anyway, the Christmas idea FAILED. I don't even want to go into how much of a headache that was... But I guess I had the kinda "last Christmas" feeling and wanted to see everyone one last time? Kinda ridiculous, but that's my subconscious. 

So, yeah... Somehow, somehow, I'm going to finish this semester, and become a member of the gall bladder-less population. And on the day of, I'm going to wear my favorite Zoro shirt which I bought in Tokyo, for good luck. Unfortunately, considering how much of an idiot Zoro is, and considering that he was willing to cut his own feet off, I'm still unsure of the wisdom of this idea. Also, one time, two months ago, when I wore my Zoro shirt to the hospital, they took my blood, I passed out, was coded blue (or as I said, "code blued-ed"), and sent to the emergency room... -_-;;; But the next time I wore him to the hospital, I was fine... and that was the time I took the gall stone out of my bile duct, through a tube down my throat... although I think that I really didn't like that, but I can't really remember because of the drugs....

( You are about to view content that may only be appropriate for adults. )

YOU KNOW YOU LIVE IN 2007 WHEN...

1.) You accidentaly enter your password on a microwave.

2.) You haven't played solitare with real cards for years.

3.) The reason for not staying in touch with your friends is they dont have a screenname or myspace.

4.) You'd rather look all over the house for the remote instead of just pushing the buttons on the TV.

6.) Your boss doesn;t even have the ability to do your job.

7.) As you read this list you keep nodding and smiling.

8.) As you read this list you think about sending it to all your friends.

9.) And you were too busy to notice number 5.

10.) You scrolled back up to see if there was a number 5.

11.) Now you are laughing at yourself stupidly.

12.) Put this in your profile if you fell for that, and you know you did.

Wow... so much has happened recently, it's not even funny. I got a Japanese Wii (which unfortunately only plays Japanese games) and while in Japan I got into $1000 debt with my brand new credit card... Still at $500... And then there's my being sick... Since about 5 weeks ago, I've been having gall stone troubles, and as such, I've had two "attacks" the second one lasting for a long time, meaning I was out for a week, stuck in the infirmary, getting fevers, throwing up, and being unable to eat (there was even one point when I turned yellow). Needless to say, in like two weeks I must have lost 20 pounds... Fortunately, I'm temporarily fixed. They got rid of the stone that was causing me all the pain and stuff, but I still need surgery to remove my gall bladder. Until then, I'm stuck on a low fat diet. That means, I can't eat fried stuff, and can only have about 10 grams of fat per day (bye-bye Hershey bars...). It really sucks... but I'm dealing... somehow... Even after the surgery, the doctor's secretary said I would have to be careful of my diet for the rest of my life! But fortunately, a friend of Mom's who also had his gall bladder out said that was ridiculous. But it's hard being on a school campus, where most of the food is stuff that looks delicious, but which I can't eat... I'm even afraid to have any ice cream, for goodness sake! Ah... I needed to rant... that was good...

I found this thing... It looks interesting, but we'll have to see...

I lied... again... My mom was gonna pick me up at 4 today, but...  I knew I wasn't gonna be ready by then, so at around 2 I called her to ask her to pick me up at 6 or 7. She got mad. Apparently she was starved, needed to use the bathroom, and too hot. She didn't want to wait any longer and decided to come pick me up at 3, go to dinner, come back, and wait in the house. I knew my Dad wasn't gonna agree to that (and he didn't.). She just kept on getting madder and madder and calling me every 10-30 seconds, until I finally told her just to go.... so... I'm alone in the house for the night... If she doesn't cool off by tomorrow I'll go to my ex-step mom's house (where I'll still be internetless, but at least Sarah doesn't care as much about what sites I visit. Won't be able to download anything though). I just wanna go to bed, and wake up tomorrow to Mom coming back. And if I go to Sarah's, I need to completely rethink my packing strategy (car vs. bus). *sigh* Sorry, I just needed to vent...

I lied... my last post was not my last... I have been making comments, but... tomorrow is my last official internet day until August 18th or 19th. Obsviously I've been stuffing my poor comp with so much anime and manga, that there's barely any space left. I... don' wanna  be away from the internet! *cries* at least I changed my LiveJournal email so that the Bleach and TeniPuri Kink Meme updates will go to my rarely used email (to prevent inquisative Moms). But... it doesn't seem to be working. *sigh* And there's a fanfic I've been waiting anxiously to be updated for a long time (several fanfics, actually) and I won't get to read them until later... And I won't get to watch Shounen Onmyouji! Or... Or... see the new episodes of Code Geass! Or... Or... read the part in Bleach where Ichigo will soooo obviously go H!Ichigo... *sigh*

Ok... Right. This is probably my last journal entry here or anywhere else, or any posting whatsoever anywhere... for the summer. For those of you worried there that I might not finish translating 15 Year Old, don't worry, I will be back! Thanks to someone's amusing comment in a forum about my internet connection problems, I thought I'd clear up exactly WHY I'm gonna be gone. It's not exactly connection problems, per se, but that's half right. 

So here's the deal. Every year my Dad spends unbelievable amounts of time in Europe with his girlfriend. He has had a habit of the last several years of going to Europe while I'm still in school and not coming back until August. Right. Sooooo, I go to my Mom's house to crash. Only problem is, my comp doesn't connect to the internet at her house. If I had found a way to connect without using the phone lines, I would have succedded four years ago. Soooooo, the only computer with internet is my Mom's.... In her room.... and she hates fanfiction, manga, and anime (except for Hayao Miyazaki) because of a complicated matter of grades that occured four years ago that you don't need to know the details of. Suffice it to say, there are no internet cafes that I know of in Northampton, and the one time I tried to suggest finding a place to hook my comp to outside, she asked, "why? You can check your email here!"  *sobs* Not to mention she's the type of person who always asks what email I got and who it was from... And since she's usually in her room if not out, then using her comp to check websites is very, very hard. (And if my Mom ever discovers what LiveJournal is, I'm going to have to friend-only, or delete everything, because if she thinks I have a journal, she won't stop until she sees it.... ) 

Soooooooo.... Checking LiveJournal action at Mom's=OUT! Once I leave Mom's I'm going to Japan. ^_^^_^_^_^_^ Yay! Unfortunately, when I went last year, I never had the time to do anything but briefly check my email. And since my host family didn't want me to connect my comp to the internet, I can only suppose it will be the same this year.

So! I am practically internetless until I return to my Dad's. Which is in the end of August. Which is around the time school starts. So... this is my story of my complaining about being internetless for the summer. If anyone needs me, if you know me, email me. If not, try here, but I can't guarentee a response until after August 18th.

See ya! And have a great summer!

Yeah, so... I finally re-did the Shounen Onmyouji avatar, and have mostly de-downloaded the One Piece episode needed for my "I has penguin" avatar, but... no matter how many times I try to upload the new pic, it doesn't work!!!!! Very frustrating! Oh, well, I guess I'll get it eventually...

And... The One Piece episode I downloaded is not being cooperative, so I guess I won't be getting a new avatar, or a new version of that clip (I had previously tried to film it with my camera. Obsviously that didn't work very well. But who could resist Zoro + Penguins?)... *sigh* I guess I'll just leave it with a new version of the Shounen Onmyouji one...

Wow... I just realized I have been repeatedly misspelling Zoro's name. I guess I've watched "The Mask of Zorro" one to many times.... -_-;;;;

Yup... I got some new avatars, I learned that the 15 Year Old doujinshi had an epilouge, and I'm thinking of re-doing some of my avatars. Back before I found a screencapping device on my comp, I took pics with my camera, resulting in three, very low quality avatars. Now, though, I just have to figure out which episodes to re-download. *sigh*

Twice in one day... so weird. Anyway, the Golden Compass movie is coming in December. Yay!!!

Ok... So the last time I wrote two days in a row I scarred myself by accidentally closing my post without saving. Hopefully, that won't happen again. I really need to rant...

So yeah, I finally got myself into gear and studied for my quiz, but I still ended up failing anyway (I had to read about 100 pages of New Testament how am I supposed to remember everything?).... I know this because we peer grade them... Anyway, I went to bed at, what, 3:50 a.m.? And then I woke up at 8 and couldn't back to sleep. 8, though, is an improvement from my unfortunate (undesirable) habit of waking at 7. And this is coming from a person who really needs 9 hours of sleep a night in order to function. Anyway, I performed my skit in Japanese class, but at a certain part I couldn't stop laughing. I tried to make it seem like I was crying, which would make more sense, but... who knows whether it actually worked. At least the rest of the skit turned out well...

Well, as bad as the day has been, yesterday was worse. I've been skipping a lot of my Shakespeare classes (yeah, bad me, I know), and last week I skipped two. I don't know whether it was because of that, but... You see, we were supposed to give these performances yesterday, and I had picked the imaginary dagger scene from the Scottish Play. I was by myself because I had forgotten to sign up until really late. Anyway, I told my Prof. what scene I was planning on doing. Anyway, when I showed up yesterday, 1) I wasn't in the program, 2) I had no idea we were supposed to memorize the scene, 3) everyone had a setting (i.e. corporation) and costumes. My Prof. says that since he hadn't heard more from me , he thought I wasn't going. He asked if I wanted to go. I said, "it's required isn't it? I'll go." So there I was, desperately trying to memorize my thirty lines while the other groups were going, not able to watch and enjoy the other scenes properly, no costume, no props, and no setting. I ended up holding my several inches thick hard bound book in my arm and having to act, look down, act, look down. It was very embarrassing for me. Well, at least I did my best under the circumstances, I suppose.

Well, I seem to have prettified my journal... after the incident where after spending over half an hour typing I accidently deleted my own post, I've almost been afraid to type here. But yeah... I have new userpics, and I decided to prettify my journal... You'll notice it's mostly purple, which is my favorite color (tied with turquoise?). And yeah, that's Japanese on the right over there, I couldn't resist. ^_^ Anyway, Must--study--for--quizzes--(and skit)--tomorrow.... have to stop procrastinating... it's really killing me...

To friend-only, or not to friend-only, that is the question. Seriously, I really don't understand the friend-only thing. It's easy enough to add someone as a friend, so is there much difference?!?! Also, I hate it, when on a community there will be a fanart or fic that looks interesting, I click the link, and it says I'm not allowed on. I sometimes want to cry because it looked so interesting from the summary. Anyway, my mind has been taken over by the insanity that is I Can Has Cheezburger? and Capslock_Bleach.

Ok... I finally figured out how to post fics in livejournal communities.... wow I'm slow... how'd I do it again?

Anyway, lookie! lookie!
Hehehe... Since I like cute things and sweets, this is perfect for me!!! ^_^ The test was from: http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/toys/testgen/4856/


Innocent Uke
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Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.</p>

^_^ .... Dang... now I have to go to my physics midterm.... And I haven't studied yet.... Oh, well. At least I got Ryoma...

Blah... I've never thought much of Live Journal entries, but I got this account in the name manga, so... I might as well as post something... ... ... ... ... ... hmmm.... what should I write? In Japanese class today we learned the "Frog Song" and the "Bear Song." The "Bear Song" is actually the Japanese version of a camp song I know, same tune and everything, only the ending really's different... I'm kinda a slacker 'cause it's already 9:18 and I haven't started my HW. And I'm already a First-Year in college... blah... bye...